21 days of…. Silence.
A little over 3 weeks ago, our college group began a 21 day media fast to finish the year and jump start the summer—to spend more time listening to God. If you had asked me before, I would have never said that I was really dependent on it. I rarely watch tv, Im not a facebook addict, and though I enjoy music, I would hardly say I live for it. But in that three weeks—in the stillness and quiet—the Lord began to reveal to me the place to which I had elevated media and demoted Him.
At the beginning of the fast my prayer was Matthew 16:24 Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciples must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.” Thus, the Lord has been teaching me what it looks like in an ever so practical manner to deny myself, take up my cross and follow him. A couple weeks ago I began to get sick… it meant deny myself caffeine. Deny myself dairy products. (as a college student those two might make up most of my diet) And as I would not feel well I found myself desiring to rest in… facebook, in twitter, reading blogs, or listening to music. My instinct was not in our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, healer, who promises rest. What?
So there I was with the realization that though no one thing taking the central place in my life, I had sought out so many other things for strength, for rest, for encouragement, and for a place to hide, that I had pushed God out of the center. And honestly there is no one of those things that brings satisfaction. They come up empty. On the other hand the Lord is the stronghold of my life (Psalm 27), my hiding place (Psalm 32), the strength of my heart and my portion forever (Psalm 73).
So now, as having found out that I am lactose intolerant, I am blessed to learn what it looks like to deny myself, and thus to follow Him. And in Him might I say there is rest…